I haven't blogged in (what feels like) years... shoot me. No seriously - shoot me! I so desperately use this blog as a personal outlet and the thought of not keeping it current makes me die a little inside :(
I have been a girl on a mission. Proudly stated, this Bride to Be is doing things ;) And while this blog has been nursing cobwebs, I have been raising a child of sorts. This wedding is my baby... it has been a more than full time job, the source of most major headaches and breakdowns, the reason for sleepless nights followed by physical ailment, my labor of love, my pride & joy, and ultimately the first day of the rest of my life. What a joyous thought...
I am down to the wire with a little over 2 weeks to go. Everybody keeps asking me if I'm ready. Am I ready to be married? Heck YES!!! Am I done with everything for the wedding? Not nearly. And if I was, then I'm sure I would find more things to do anyway. Leave it me to always feel the need to take things to the next level. It's such an inate tendency. I am currently consumed with all the little things. And any bride will tell you that its those little things that get the best of you in the weeks that preceed the wedding. I admit... I really just need to chill (or take a nap, as Linette so frequently reminds me!) Much easier said than done.
On the other hand (and I've said it before but I'll say it again), I Love it. All of it. If ever someone was meant to plan a wedding, you're looking at her. Whether that's lame or heartwarming, I leave to you to decide.
And this next part should really get its own post but it seems appropriate to add...
Subject: Mark. Honestly, you will not meet a more patient and supportive guy. I realize my take on him is bound to be biased, but I'm pretty sure he is The Cure on earth for any and all anxiety, doubt, fatigue, or frustration. This is going to sound weird but sometimes he makes me not care at all about the wedding. I know that's totally contradictory, but what I mean is that all this can go away (and it will) but in the end, its just me and him. And really, nothing matters more.
Kind of not what you would expect from a girl who claims to be born to be a bride, right? It is very hard to put into words and a little too mushy for my taste but its the truth. Every last detail is inspired by our love for each other, which can marvelously be described as "simply elaborate." I am lucky to find something everyday to remind me of this.